So I once had a friend named Maya. She told me she never wanted to talk to me again, on my 16 birthday. Why? Becasue I had heard some rumors that she was in to drugs/ gang. I didn;t think she would tell me if they were true unless I lied to her because we hadn't talked for a long time and she wasn't acting like her self the last time I spoke to her.
So I asked her if she had any drugs I could buy. She said no, but told me about being on house arrest cuz of being present at a gang fight. I then told her I had lied about wanting to buy drugs, because I was worried for her.
She was pissed. I was wrong for doing what I did, but I apoligized. She said she nevr wanted to talk to me again. Today is her birthday so I decided to text her happy birthday. Here is what happened:
Me: Happy Birthday...
Maya: Thx
Me: Do mu know who this is?
Maya: uuhuu
Me: Oh okay, well i hope ur doing well and Im sorry for what happened between us.
Maya: Thanks and yeah
Me: So...how are you?
Maya: Just because you said sorry it doesn't make it better I got in a lot of trouble for that little trick you played
if you remember my trust is earned and taken away.
youve lost it and once it's gone it's gone
Me: how'd u get in trouble?!?
Maya: My messages are checked! If shit like that is on my phone I get in a lot oif trouble
Me: well its your own damn fault you told me anything, i asked you a question and u didn't HAVE to awnser, dont blame ur trouble on me.
Maya: Bitch, dont try to act cool! Hown many friends are you around now?!? seriously i thought you were a friend but guess not cuz friends don't do that! and you know whhat? you need to grow the fuck up its the real world no ones there to say oh poor you yes i fucking told you shit bcuz i use to be able to trust you...
Me: My intetions were good even if you doint beliuev me i only asked u that stuff becausze i was worried I heard some rumors and didnt think ud tell me shit unless I lied i thought u were a friend to but the day you told me you never wanted to talk to me was on my bday and it is the shittest one ive ever had I really am sorry that I did that to you i know it was stupid and bitchy i wish I had never said anything cuz although I have a ton of friends now they never went thro the shit u and I did (she use to SI too) I needed to tell you all that so maybe you wouldnt see me as such a bad person and we could end our friendship on a nice note.
Maya: guilt trips dont work on me! and not to mention the fact u never use to listen to rumors so how can I even try to believe what you are saying!?! that fact that I told you I never wanted to ttalk to u again was ur dumbass fault. im tired of dealing with the shit i do i dont need lies spread arouns and rumors from what I have heard are NOT TRUE! IDK what you heard and IU dont think ur a bad person i think that you need to not be under the constant influnce of your friends (she thinks the whole drug think was a prank I pulled with one of my friends, which it wasn't) think for yourself and life will get easier...
Me: im not trying to guilt trip you and ya I never lietened to rumors, ik i still dont but i didnt know what to believe because I hadnt talked to you 4ever and u hadn't been ur self it had nothing to do with my friends i think for myself more then u can imagine...
Maya: R (her friend) thinks your funny?
Me: Okay?
Maya: In other words R who believes and trusts most ppl doesnt trust u! so im done w/ this don't reply.
(who is under her friends influnce?????? UMMM it looks like u are, I am thinking this now as i write)
Me: fine idc if R trusts me, idc if u trust me it doesnt matter that u never want to talk to me again im never gunna forget u either way i wanted to make up w/ u so that i would think of u in a good way but fine im sorry, again :(
R texts me!
R: i think ur an ass-kissing bitch that is uglier then the bottom of my foot fuck u cuz nobody will and leave my girlfriend (IDK if there dating or just friends, I thought maya was straight) alone get over the fact that she is better off w/out you

I think Im better off w/ out her because what she saying is some of the meanest things anyone has said to me. I cried after this. She was my bf for 3year she knew every thing about me she understood me. we were so much alike. SHE BROKE MY HEART because I loved her like a sister. She is the only one I have ever ever been able to rlly open up with. In my year book she wrote that where ever we go in life I would always be in her heart, but I guess not. I know she'll be in mine although she hurt me because before that she healed me, and I cant ever forget my first real best friend. I have plenty of friends and a best friend in this point at my life, so I am just trying to forget about her. But she'll always be in the back of my mind.

The things she said realy hurt me and I dont think ll ever be able to forgive her, but I don't think Ill ever for get she was my friend

" I always thought we'd look back on our tears and laugh, but I never thought I'd look back on our laughter and cry. I trusted you with everything, my heart, my feelings, my dreams, snd my fears. I know I did something wrong to you, but you did something wrong to me. The things you said I'll always remember. The scars run deep, but I still care. You were my friend"

I wish I could say that to her...