I hate my life at the moment. I had forgotten what it felt like to be depressed. It sucks the life out of you and makes u feel like nothings worth it, and that hurts. I could just break down and cry any moment. Things are (were) going so well for me: i am excited for school, i just got my role for the fall musical, and me and my mom just had 2 really great days together. But life just doesnt seem enjoyable for the depressed who are off meds. I am srry to complin to all of you who actually read my blog (thank you!) but i need to vent somewhere about my pathetic life issues. And trust me ppl, therapy is not cutting it. Haha cutting it..
You know whats weird? Although i am feelin as low as the tide, i dont want to cut. Theres just no point for me anymore. SI dosent make me feel good anymore and it is just getting old having to hide scars in the middle of july. I guess this is a step in the right direction, the one away from hurting myself.
I should try to get some sleep now. And thank you again to those of u who do read my blog. You have no idea how much it has helped me in my recovery because now i know i am not alone.
Night,

xXNadiaXx

I hate being off the fucking zoloft. I feel like shit. I feel antisocial and bitchy. I feel like getting drunk and/ or high. I want to because I feel like nothing really matters. I had a great day at my camp, but now im crashing and hard. I feel like a jerk cuz i just really want to be alone, but all my cousins are here. I want to have fun and be happy, but i just feel like i cant. Thats depression and it sucks...