The last post was just a quickie to let you know I am alive. I've been very tired a busy lately. I haven't gone to thearpy in forever and I was off my meds for over a month. That was stupid. It didn't effect me to much untill the end and then I got really bitchy and sad. Now I'm back on the damn zoloft and I feel worse then before. SO many headaches. I really should go back to thereapy and to see my pshychologist, but I really don't want to. I fell like it wont help., lke it never will. I feel okay now, not to high and not to low. But then I swing to too low, but uually that doesn't last to long. That is going to be my life and I am just going to have to deal with it because I don't want to see a doctr anymore, they just make me feel worthless and stupid...

I haven't SI'ed for 226 days! I have thought about numerous times, but I didn't. I don't know how I did that. I just thought about my friends. I have made so many good friends this year who have helped me so much and I love them.

More later

NADIA